4 somethin' new

          Dear diary. God, I lost my spirit of life again. How could this happen to me? Over'n over again! I don't take anymore.. It's hurt,God. I need d'some1 special again 4 my lonely heart. Actually, I'm so exhausted. I really sorry if I always grumble. B'coz I don't want to waste my life time 4 nothing. I want to get something real 4 my life. Ya.. Rahman...